Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

:)
Dalam kehidupan kita, sememangnya Allah yang maha penyayang menganugerahkan pelbagai nikmat kepada kita, yang tak terkira banyaknya.
Indah, apabila kehidupan kita diisi dengan kehadiran insan yang amat memahami, menguatkan apabila terasa lemah, menceriakan suasana tatkala hati merasa gelisah, menasihati ketika diri ini memang perlu dinasihati, seorang teman hidup yg amat jujur dengan perasaannya, kerana dia hanya mahukan kita menjadi lebih baik.
Dan darinya, kupelajari banyak perkara, kukagumi banyak sifatnya…
:) really love him.. my life partner.

Bismillah

uhuuhuuu.. 

of course, feels like crying.. sedih, disebabkan segala kekurangan diri.. yg menyebabkan x terurusnya seluruh kehidupan. 
i know.. i’m adapting.. but seriously, sometimes it feels like… the end of the world.
haiya? why so negative??
huhu.. dunno la..
i just dunno..
just dunno.. who i am anymore..

T_T sedih sgt2.. but u just dunno who you wanna tell, cause basically u just dont believe anyone else.. sigh.. coz i know, there’s only ONE who’ll be truly understanding of what i’m going trough..

banyak2kn doa! minta kat Allah k.. <3
 

Bismillah

Saya dikelilingi oleh orang-orang yang hebat
Yang seringkali membuatkan diri saya termalu sendiri
Kerana saya tahu betapa tak hebatnya saya..
& betapa banyaknya kekurangan diri saya
walaupun telah lama tersedar & menyedari hakikat itu
Namun hingga sekarang masih belum ada pencapaian yang memberangsangkan.

Lalu, terfikir… apa yang mahu saya capai sebenarnya?
Kepuasan manusia?
Kemenangan bertanding dengan manusia lain?
Luruskan
Luruskanlah orientasi niat wahai diri
InshaAllah, Allah yang akan bantu.

p/s:
Allah ada selalu, tapi kamu tu..
selalu ke luangkan masa untuk Allah?
 

You know, what’s so special about my roommate?

Well…

She’s amazing

From her, I learnt that despite of any background that you have, you can still be a good person.

My roommate loves to learn.

She loves to listen to the talks from the scholars. A lot of it. You name it, Brother Nouman, Amr Khaled, Tariq Ramadan,& not to forget the tremendous collection of mp3s in the drive.

She also loves to read. Always, she had a book with her. If she has finished that book, she’ll asked for the another book. &, not only the non-medic books, she also loves to read the medical book. She reads Kumar nClark. And to make sure that she reads that book, she even tears that book apart according to chapters. Well, I somehow agree with her… Books are not meant to be kept, but it is meant to be read, & the more you read it, the more it become ‘tear apart, flipped, etc’, the more it is passed from hand to hand, the better it is. Well, I didn’t mean that you need to not taking good care of your book though. Of course, we need to keep good care of our book, but that doesn’t mean by just putting it nicely on our shelf and let it be there for weeks, or even months, or even years… :)

She also loves to perform the sunnah of the prophet.

She loves to recite quran, she even improvises her recitation, her pronunciation, and she has never been ashamed of asking other people to teach her, to correct her.

She even learns arabic to understand the quran better.

She loves to perform dhuha prayer.

She loves to share the talks that she had been listening to, the articles that she has been reading. 

When she loves someone, she’ll express her love.

She gives presents. She makes you feel appreciated. She always takes care of her family, her friends. She always has been worrying for others. She always lent her shoulder for you. She always confides you when you face any problem. She always remembers to put the best smile, even when waking up for fajr. She is…

She is AMAZING.

I miss her…

A lot!

Thank you Allah for her presence in my life.

She’s not perfect, she still have weakness. But I still love her. 

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

i have a friend,

whom i love sooooooo much!!

because of…
her kindness,
her warmth,
her endless support,
her gedikness,
her sweetness,
her cuteness,
her etc3. 

Though it may sounds weird, but.. seriously, i love her.

And i really hope, that i love her because of Allah.. not because of other reasons, motive, intentions, interests etc… Solely, because of Allah. :)

u know who u are~ 

p/s: loving someone doesn’t mean she has to be perfect, but it means.. u can accept her, good & bad. It feels like screaming to the world, telling how much i love her! only God knows!!

Allahumma inna nasaluka hubbak, wa hubba may yuhibbuk, wa hubba amaliy yuqarribu ila hubbik..  

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

I don’t know why, this song keeps rhyming in my head. Maybe sebab dengar kat kedai pagi tadi. Yup, lagu ni maybe referring to cinta manusia. Tapi, saya lebih suka untuk refer ‘You’ kepada Allah. 

Sebab, terfikir. Apa yang patut saya buat, utk dapatkan cinta Allah? 
saya rasa, semua orang pun tahu jawapannya: baca quran, hafaz quran, tolong orang buta lintas jalan, ziarah orang sakit, bagi makanan kita yg terbaik kat orang lain, amar ma’ruf nahi munkar, cakap benda2 yang baik je, qiamullail, zikir, puasa, solat, riadhah, makan & minum yg tayyibah, tidur untuk recharge energy utk beribadah kepada Allah, senyum kat saudara yg lain, doakan orang bersin, beri salam, mengeratkan silaturrahim, dakwah,   Tapi, ni macam refleksi kepada diri saya sendiri, adakah saya dah berbuat sepenuhnya, semua perkara yang saya tahu, utk dapatkan cinta Allah tu?  

Rasa macam, apa lagi?
apa lagi ha?
apa lagi yang kau nak, untuk mencintai Allah dengan sepenuh hati?
Allah dah bagi macam2 dah! Scholar? makanan? pakaian? rumah? mata? telinga? mulut? hati? jantung? mama? abah? sahabat? alam yang indah? matahari? bulan? bumi? air? burung? hidayah? islam? pendengaran? penglihatan? masa? telefon? laptop? kemahiran 3M? KBKK? sekolah? (and the list goes on… and on.. )

Apa lagi yang kau nak?
Apa lagi yang kau nak?
Apa lagi?
Apa lagi?
utk benar2 mencintai Allah & mengerahkan seluruh jiwa, tenaga, masa, & harta yang kau ada untuk Allah??

=.=

p/s:cukuplah sudah melayan rasa futur tu, kau akan ketinggalan jauh. Kalau tak terus berlari mengejar cinta Allah. noktah.  

Ya Allah, berkatilah masaku
Keluarkan diriku dari kesukaran & kebuntuan

Allah, leraikanlah dunia yang membelenggu hatiku
Jadikanlah aku, hambaMu yang menggantungkan segala pengharapannya
Hanya, ya hanya kepadaMu
Menyerahkan segala-galanya kepadaMu

Ya rabb,
Engkaulah yang maha tahu,
Sedangkan aku hanyalah hambaMu yang amat kerdil
Amat terhad pengetahuannya.

Kuatkanlah diri kami
& jadikanlah kami hambaMu yang sebenar-benarnya.